Why?
by P.J. Sutherland

Why was I not good enough
Good enough to be loved
That is all I ever wanted
Not proud of my flying skill
Just proud of me as his son
My best was never enough
My love was never enough
He must not know I failed
But how can I tell such lies
I must tell them I lied
I cannot live with myself
I see disgust in his eyes
He is ashamed of me
His voice drips with hatred
Says he knew I was no good
I was not a true Paris
He wished that I was dead.
I needed him to love me
Here in the Delta Quadrant
I still feel his eyes on me
His eyes filled with disgust
With no love or forgiveness
A voice full of bitterness
Shamed to be my father
I will never have his love
But I have B'Elanna's love
I know she is my soulmate
Why can I not say the words
When they tremble on my lips
Have I lost the will to try
Or does fear hold me hostage
Fear says I am not worthy
That I do not deserve love
I love you, three little words
I know she wants to hear them
Maybe tonight is the night
Her eyes outshine the candles
My love, my sweet B'Elanna
Beautiful in heart and body'

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